Stop my suicide

Grizzly Tank · #1 2007-07-17, 06:08

I was at the lowest point in my life. Four friends have died, I was caught doing drugs, and a close friend was sent to jail. Then I graduated, I thought I was free. But no, thats when the trouble really started. After a few weeks of summer, my parents wont let anyone over because they think I'm on drugs. My dad is a lousy drunk and my mom makes me look for the hidden booze, so now I have to spy on my own dad. I almost lost my job, and my bank account has been mysteriously drained, now I owe money. I learned that I will be kicked out of my house when I am 18 and I have no way of supporting myself. I've been looking for another job but cant find one. I am not going to college because I can't afford it and my parents won't pay.

Here I am, no money, no friends, and as far as I am concerned, no family. I have nothing to live for. Nothing excites me, I just want to die. I see no point in living if I'm miserable and homeless, please help.

Rykoshet · #2 2007-07-17, 06:10

Go to craigslist.

Tell them you issue.

Ask someone to take you in, you'll find a job, and pay rent eventually.

Find that someone.

Move out, get ready for a hard life, but if you work at it, cut ties to your family (you don't need that baggage), you will persevere.

???

Profit

Analog · #3 2007-07-17, 06:10

Dude, things can turn around man.
Just lower your head and keep on fighting.
Come on man.
Don't commit suicide.
It is such a cop out.
LIVE MAN!
Just live!

Grizzly Tank · #4 2007-07-17, 06:20

Yes its a copout, but I won't care if I'm dead. In a way, I feel like I would be teaching my parents a well deserved lesson.

Emotive91 · #5 2007-07-17, 06:26

Yeah but you wont be there to realize if they learned that lesson or not. Seriously man, Life has ups and downs. Its happened to me before man. Keep your head up

Pseud0nym · #6 2007-07-17, 06:29

Don't you have any friends you can lean on?

Anyway, lately I've been feeling like utter shit, and it wasn't a quarter as bad as how you must feel, but I can relate in a way.

Have some down time, seems like you are already having that. Let yourself get depressed. Cry. Break things, whatever. Then after you have cleared out your head just get up and keep fucking fighting. Shit isn't going to get easy but you can start selling drugs, instead of doing them, hopefully get a HEX on your college funds, maybe hook up with old friends that you have grown apart from, try to meet a nice girl whom you can rely on.

People have made millions of the stock market from just a few hundred dollars. Maybe that can help you out if you're willing to risk it?

I don't know your life, just do whatever makes you happy (EXCEPT SUICIDE!!!!) Listen to music, join a sports club, write, paint, start exercising (good idea actually, as exercising makes one feel better about themselves).

/rant

P.S. there are groups and counsellors for this kind of thing. These groups have people in your situation, maybe you should seek them out? Also, how about consoling with the friends of your friends who died?

EDIT: Think of your friend in jail. Keep living for him, it seems he needs you and you need him. If he is your close friend, he probably also lost 4 friends as well so talk with him, maybe get in touch with his family if you can?

Ziv423 · #7 2007-07-17, 06:30

Well problem #1 for you is assuming life after high school was just gonna be peachy. You set yourself up for a letdown.

I'm sorry to hear about your friends passing, I'm curious to know what happened to them.

I'm sure you'll find a job if you just try your ass off. Mostly anyone can. For some people, they don't want to degrade themselves and take their ass to McDonald's or something like that, but if you need to, you need to.

How much time until you turn 18?

Grizzly Tank · #8 2007-07-17, 06:37

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow. The same one who I've been seeing for several years, I have never been able to trust him, and besides my parents want to come in there and talk to him with me.

And about my friends:
http://findarticles.com/p/articles/m...2/ai_n19166368

KevinK · #9 2007-07-17, 06:37

you live in cali, go buy a gun and pwn yourself

Rocko · #10 2007-07-17, 06:45

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Originally Posted by Grizzly Tank

I was at the lowest point in my life. Four friends have died, I was caught doing drugs, and a close friend was sent to jail. Then I graduated, I thought I was free. But no, thats when the trouble really started. After a few weeks of summer, my parents wont let anyone over because they think I'm on drugs. My dad is a lousy drunk and my mom makes me look for the hidden booze, so now I have to spy on my own dad. I almost lost my job, and my bank account has been mysteriously drained, now I owe money. I learned that I will be kicked out of my house when I am 18 and I have no way of supporting myself. I've been looking for another job but cant find one. I am not going to college because I can't afford it and my parents won't pay.

Here I am, no money, no friends, and as far as I am concerned, no family. I have nothing to live for. Nothing excites me, I just want to die. I see no point in living if I'm miserable and homeless, please help.

Beat your parents to it. Get a crap job, and move into a basic apartment. Don't tell them where you're going or any shit like that, just tell them to sort their shit out and you'll contact them when you're ready. Go to the bank and have your account closed, you don't need them stealing out if it. Pay your rent and bills in cash until you turn 18 and can start your own account.

Somewhere in that time period, find a better job. If you really look, you can find places willing to shell out for a basic education. I work at a car dealership, and they have a whole program where they pay for professional training for newly hired mechanics. It'll take some searching to find the right job, but as long as you have the crap job you won't be in trouble.

This whole time period, avoid using credit cards or other forms of debt. What you do is get ONE credit card, and put like fifty bucks a month on it. Use it to see a couple movies a month or some shit. Pay off the complete balance every month. Do this for a couple of years without any other forms of debt, and you have yourself a perfect credit rating. Suddenly securing a student loan is easy, or getting a home loan if you so desire.

Education is important for advancing further, so find a community college and decide what you want to study. Then, apply for every fucking scholarship, grant, or whatever. Google it and go down the list applying for everything. You're bound to get enough to put a dent in your tuition. Go to school part time as you work enough to pay the bills. It'll suck for a couple of years, but depending on what you study the payoff will be pretty kickass. Then and only then, perhaps you can consider talking to your parents again.

Oh, visit your buddy in jail often, and don't go near any drugs.

Now if only I could follow my own advice.